First bursts of mirth hurt

Hurt’s the heart of our world

Hot’s the iron core

Admiring our blue pearl,

who could ask for more?

Who asked H to mix and squeeze?

Who asked birds, who asked the trees?

Who asked you, for to eat meat?

Who asked the hawk, the shark, the cheet’?

Who asked the wasp, her spider to sting?

Who asked the monk, his bell to ring?

Who asked smoke in the air to rise,

and molecules push aside,

with such disregard for their comfort?

Who asked you to open your eyes?

Project your personality

Upon my poetry

Suits me

Impose as you please

for I have none

I have passed on

permanently

Perhaps you prefer

I write nothing

Improve you could

Perfection impaired

I persist

You were not here

I missed your perfume

Do you plead

that a blossom improve

Its petals

appear in their moment

A pressure divine

shall push them

The bud bursts first

Ahem

I knew you once
I had a friend
I moved away
Our time did end

Oh you, always
you did excel
sportlich, brilliant
you would do well

como el sol
you did give light
now from afar
you twinkle bright

once I wondered
you disappeared
among so many
stars in the sky

now I wander
across the night
earthly confines
not on my mind

Life was simply
too amazing
blew my mind up
gave me hiccups

til I learned to
pilot soberly
Starship earth I'll
fly to you, you'll see

You'll see how we
now are grown men
Men! What a wild
dream this is

Now do we be
perpetrators
actors, serious
movers, shakers

Like ancient kings
railroad tycoons
bandits, gangsters
artists, mystics

What are you now?
My telescope
was only so good
showed where, not what

Like any star
your point of light
would glimmer, shine
Boring, from here

You must have had
your flares, your storms
Megatons roil
Elements boil

Supernova?
I don't think so
but I am no
astronomer

Perhaps you have
become a dwarf
Again, I doubt
but we will see

Do you sport life?
Have planets, wife?
Have struggle, strife?
Enjoy your life?

Do you burn hot?
or not, or what?
diligent work?
lazily shirk?

Are you pulled-on?
puppet-like led?
Pushed by fam'ly?
Beaten... dead?

You look fine yet
from here, yet we
know how space works
light years hide tears

What news from you?
A heart that was
once mine, now grown
apart in time

Yet roots and vines
do intertwine
is that you there?
I feel my roots...
twitching

Keep writ(h)ing

Write a poem, dreamer

make a rhyme, like in ancient time

they did, before investing in paper

or cutting quills, they rapped

quipped, cleverly

jumped, excitedly, sang

inspired others to wildness of excess

brought flames from mid-breast

poured ashes, beat chest

cried to see how others

would react

to me

Me is little

I am often found

floating free, irresponsibly

in the lowest sectors of society

I am where I want to be

My friends tried

to give me pride

pushed aside

they glide

through time

until I find

the solar system

where I was meant to be

but the sun keeps coming with

as if I am, already, where

I was meant to be

Floating free

Little me

We spin and fly

Ball of Earth, no sky

That sky is such a thin shell

A membrane we know only too well

from the inside, from beneath

We cut our teeth on it

Ceramic tiles help

We whelp

Advancing, pain

Squirming, prancing

Babies rain from hospitals

We make more, teach them to fly

Encourage them to break

the sky with rockets

Why not

It’s there, isn’t it?

Look at that shit, all blue

Sometimes black, how dare

those stars exist so far from where

we are, from where we die

from where we cry, just

how are we going

to impress them

own them

I

know

not what effect

our transmissions

are having on extra-

terrestrial observers, what

impression would you get, only

watching our films and internets?

Pushing and striving, struggling, thriving
Not quite fighting to stay alive, we
do something quite curious, aye, we
fight to make sure that we're struggling

It's a game we play, lest the neighbors should say
that he knows someone's getting it easy
"Not me!" say we, "It's as hard as could be,"
and then go and turn on the TV.

You wouldn't believe, what, at work,
it was like today. Some person said x
and then someone said y and oh boy
did it go down from there

Did you hear about the tornado
Oh yes, in Oklahoma?
Oh my do we people suffer
at the hands of the Almighty!

An earthquake, too, in China, oh why
And those terrorists, shooting up the Middle East
I hear Latin America's got drugs!
Oh yez, all these inhuman influenzes

Oddly enough, most folks that I know
Never saw anything really brutal
Isn't that weird... how does a body relate
To real, direct fear and hate?

Myself, I've never seen
A person dead, a severed head
Nor disaster, silence after
Now, mind you, that's not a complaint!

Just the same, what is this game
we play... football
the poor of the world call
to the Lord, ignored

Remember when you understood
The words from your family, friends
Remember everything that happened
Yesterday

Describe your heart, your feeling
When you prepared yourself
When you looked in the mirror
Today

Inside and outside, conflicting
Meet between your eyes
You know that your time is coming
Tomorrow

The millions of millions of movements
Manipulation of membranes
moment by moment
Everyday

Breathe

The knowledge that people die
The persistent question why
The question of the meaning of "I"
Forever

Time flies, I lie
Down, at least once daily
Take a look at my life
Just a quick one, and you might think that I'm lazy
Looking longer, then you know
Mountains move slow

Yes
I think you will be realizing why
As I shine this light to look inside
And all the little critturs gonna run and hide
Cos they don't want to deal with the sensitive mind
Of a child, whose light does shine!
That's the future You don't need to deny
That everything you do in it it will be judged and tried
By a child

he's never had to look at you and see you try
and he doesn't want to know what makes you cry
and he's trying really hard to deal with what he's got on the inside
without anybody feeling like he lied
It ain't easy to be great, like your mother tried
To tell you that you were when u came inside
On long day in a cold world that told you ur unwise

And now that there's no one to hold you
And you've gotta go to bed in the cold you
Try to say that you don't mind it anyway you
Know that you could change it if u really really wanted to
You know you're gonna get what's coming to you
You know that you create the future much as we do
You know that you still have something left to prove
You know it's hard to control even just what you do
You know You, and soon so will everybody else too

Don't you know what happens on your last day?
How everybody meets up with the main brain...

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Yes

Whatever's true is true, it's true(!)
I know, I truly do
That truly true blue truth 
Forsooth
Can sometimes pass 
'Tween tooth and tooth

If

If you are given money
What would you do with it?
If you have time on your hands
How about that?
What is your purpose?

Are you useful?
Do you pay for yourself?
Are you worth the time
Your parents invested?
Keep working!

Aren't we lucky?
Don't we dodge bullets?
How do we earn this room, this view
These bodies in which we live while
We say goodbye and thank you

From my belly
I walk upstairs to my eyes
I run away from them
To my hands
To cover my ears

Talk about sensory overload!
How do we deal with it all
When we want a drink of water
And receive a waterfall
We are learning to see galaxies

If you tell a story
Is it just about your day?
Is it just about what people say
Or is it too, about the true
The things that lay in wait

If we ask for the true, must we not say
The truth is something we cannot have
Don't our perspectives obstruct our objective
Of knowing what we say
Is clay just made of clay?

Yay

Great!

Great!

GREAT GREAT GREAT!

How'd you get so great?

Look at all the things you've said and done!
Look at all the times you've had such fun!
How do you do it, how do you keep going on?
Look at all the wondrous things you've done...

Look at all the layers of this world we live in!
Metaphors and metaphors and Lord is it a prison
Old, we can't explain to our young the states we live in
Polite, we don't get bossy when we love the life we live in

Boy

For Kent

My art, it is hard to define
My method, it's hard to divine
I do without doing, try not to try
Stand on the earth, under the sky

You've heard that the earth is round
Yet were small, and it doesn't so seem
Compare then my goals to the ground
And you're starting to know what I mean

I am an expert at nothing
A Master of nothing am I
I pray to the Lord for my breakfast
I walk the earth under the sky

There are but two things in the world
My child
Only two things in the world
The one is all that you can see
The other is everything else

Never mind the contradictions
Opposites exist
In every meaning of words and worlds
Our lives are made of this

How could you rise, when everythings flat?
How could your enemies fall?
There's time for that at the end of the world
After we're done with it all

The singularity is, Lord help me, Great
It frightens me, makes me stay up late
The view from our minds
Behind our eyes
Is something we commonly hate
But no one expects us to be too great

That's why we have faith
We say, "This is what I know!"
We plant our feet, grit our teeth
While the fight lays all of us low

Though low we are laid
At the end, in a grave
We also get mightily high
And we often know
That to strive so hard
We're totally justified

That's why we try so hard
To be healthy, organized
There basically is no more wasteable time
Remaining in our lives

With my brother in mind
As a team, we try
To bring us all ever higher
With my sister in hand
We take our stand
Doing our best to inspire

Thank you, my friends
For being so great
I wish you all success

Thank you

I've become a mother

And a father, to myself

I have a baby to take care of

And that's me

I feed myself, and bathe me

and put me to bed at night

ready for school in the morning

I hope I will do good, and well!

Time will tell

I am pregnant

With another me

To be born soon

Such responsibility!

How will I take care

Of all my future mouths to feed

How can I be sure

To help myself, when I'm in need?

Time will tell

For now, I just know

Work, work, work

be good, take care

Say Thank You, Please

We all have many mouths to feed

This brain I wear
This heart I carry
Are, to me a wild catastrophe
If they worry you
(They may try!)
Well then, I am sorry

This heart, these visceral guts of mine
Fill me with tears, and laughter, and tears
Floating this wild, balooning mind
Not quite contained between my ears
What can I do, but ride out my time
Holding on tight, throughout the years
Except now I guess I can "get online"
And complain far and wide about my fears
-
I'm afraid, yes, afraid, that this heart of mine
Won't make it, through all these wild years
To share, with our newborn mind
Something great, pleasing to Everyone's ears
All of the forces of change combined
Are focused on all of our "nows" and "heres"
A storm-tossed fleet on an ocean of time
Are we, lost child bucaneers
-
No simple ocean we now ride
Merely affected by wind and tide
The warmth of the sun, its cold absence aside
We're sensitive to many tides
The Earth spins wild, orbits wide
Burned by sun and stars besides
Pitted by far-flung stones and ice
Pressed enough to melt inside
Yanked through space
At a frightening pace
By a Galaxy of modest size
In which a million suns could hide
And never be noticed by our two eyes
As we hang on for the ride of our lives

And that's nothing compared to the ways we affect each other...

I hope you atheists can forgive my religious tendencies...
I hope that you religious folk forgive my godless upbringing
We are all the same
We are all the same

How can I have peace?
I will have it
Even if my heart is hard
And I must say
That I don't care
For some, or others
This is something
Which I do not like to say

My brother says
God is worthless
My other brother says
Your brother is worthless
Both are bad

Beware extremes!
Don't pick a team
Stay here, in the middle
Time will tell
Just who chose well
And whose world-view was little

Do you know everything
Do you speak with authority
Let's be careful
With our words
Lest we speak of more than we
Could know

Let's agree, that some things be
And some things, they be not
And some things seem to be but aren't
And some things seem to not, but do
And that's about as simple as it comes

Welcome to life
Here's your ignorance
Try not to hurt yourself with it

Gene Travels

I'm preparing for a trip. I've informed the house in which I've lived the last four years that I'll soon depart, intending to go live with family. I'm still in it at the moment, though... it's a bit awkward. My friends and family ask: "Gene, what's your plan?"

I consider my plan, my employment, my methods of living my life, and I wonder... Life sure is confusing sometimes. Blessed be those who feel like they know their purpose!

It occurs to me that I am free, anything to pursue. I'm pining a bit, for family, for a reliable lifestyle that involves early bed, early rising, and tidiness. It is easy for me, lately, to be involved in a crowd that wants to stay up late and party all the time. Hopefully I'll soon be headed toward home, to visit my father and mother. Hopefully my old friends will forgive me, for getting to old and careworn to stay up late into the night with them.

Well, we are all getting older... Imagine how God feels!

Before we get too carried away...

Let's take a little time to say
That the purpose of this bloggerey
Is just to put us all "on the same page"
A mind is a terrible thing not to display

There is quite enough disorder in our lives
At least, it seems that way to me, sometimes
I'd rather work together, organized
I'll start by showing off my own mind's eye

I've seen reality now, over time
Just like you, don't we all wonder why
Why the world itself is going wild
Can't I make life right for me and mine
Without making it worse for someones child

As a man, who is a man, I do take care
There are many different people here
Some are strong, and others weak
Some are large, and some petite

Open your eyes, as a first try
In the past you would have spied
Just only what around you lies
But these days, no, the world's increased in size

Look at your country!
It's as large as the Earth!
Beautiful, dangerous, confusing, and worth
All of your efforts, your time,
You owe it your birth

Here you sit, or stand, in your home
You may freely in it roam
You'll find, everywhere you go
Siblings, parents, children, home

Don't forget, you're never alone
The loneliness you feel is not your own
But the Lord's, and not yours, not your own
The loneliness you feel is not your own

Metagene

Gene went to a university to study Fine Art, but failed to graduate. Sometimes he feels like he doesn't need no degree or nuthin, sometimes he wishes he had been more determined. He wished at that time that he could study "crude art" instead...

Gene likes to be pious, but does not have a native religion.

He likes to eat vegetarian food, but sometimes eats meat.

He likes to avoid pork for the Muslims, and beef for the Hindus, but sometimes eats these things.

Gene likes to pray to God.

His favorite religions are Taoism, Buddhism, Christianity, Islam.

Gene does not like marijuana, though he has tried it.

Gene sometimes drinks alcohol, but concedes that it's probably not a very good idea.

Gene is willing to work very hard for his success.

Gene has worked jobs which require staying awake all night.

Gene has occasionally worked all day, all night, and the next day as well. This didn't seem very healthy...

Gene was born and raised in the "USA," but prefers to say that he's from the Internet.

Gene has traveled to Japan, Canada, England, France, and Germany, and hopes to see China after learning to read and speak Mandarin and/or Cantonese.

Gene is learning to speak French.

Metastuff

Gene is in the process of uploading his brain on to the internet. This may take some time.

Meanwhile he/I(him) will do our best to give clues as to why this process is necessary by providing metadata about this guy whose blog you are reading.

First: Gene's a nice guy. Usually. You're more likely to see him trying to be helpful, useful, pious, filial, and a gentleman than trying to fit in with a rough crowd, or to do anything destructive. So, if it should have any bearing on your desire to read/participate in this project, let it be known that my goals include only "good" things, and exclude "bad" ones.

Second: My/Our/His thoughts, like all of ours, buzz like electrons around any given subject of consideration, and connect constantly with the many ideas or concepts associated with any given subject which he/I may be thinking/speaking/writing about. Gene thinks that these "meta"concepts ("metaconcepts?") deserve more attention in daily conversation, and will try daily to illuminate the network of nested relationships of the conceptual facts of which our reality is made. It seems to me that the world we live in, though often painful, distressing, confusing, lonely, is actually perfectly reasonable and totally good. Sure, shit happens, but not more so than flowers, and love, and family, etc.

The "problem" with our perfect world is that it is perfectly balanced, with just as many "good" things in it as "bad." Thus, when we view it from our less-than-perfect, humbly human eyes, we often see more bad in it than good. What can we do, but grin, and bear it? And cry...

Ach...

I'm not in trouble, I don't suppose...
I sleep well, I wear fine clothes
I go just where the Lord's wind blows.
Long enough of doing so
A man may learn just where to go,
And that's home, to where the heart is.
I have no wife, no kids sprung hence,
No ties, no needs, nor wish for else.
Guess I'll go and check up on my folks...




What have I learned, these long, lonely years?
That striving can't compete with tears.
Tis better to fail, and cry out your heart
Than it is to live unexpressed, sans Art
Though my art, it humble be
Unseen to most but Buddha and me
Yet I'm sure I have Something
Worthy now, toward home to bring,
For Treasure we aren't on Earth keeping,
But in our hearts

Here are my thoughts laid down to see
In hopes of making it plain to thee
Why I lived so long so far and separately
Even though I've sorely missed my family

Myself

Here I am, or here I was
I put this here just because
Because it's good; images help
To make the invisible
Better understood
I'm different now, and the same
In heart, in purpose, and in name